I know I kind of went off the other day about this whole Cynical Pharmacist Facebook Page garbage and if I’m being honest I’m not really over it. But, I’m trying to move on from it because it was getting way too heavy for me. What really shocked me was how comfortable the people on... Continue Reading →
The problem with just letting it sit without speaking up is that the only thing every really being posted on this page is negative things about patients. It’s the only thing that ever gets any noise or attention.
How is it possible that in the same ER doctors can treat you so differently? What was it about me that Dr. A found so offensive while Doctor C. and Doctor D. were welcoming and open and helpful?
It would be five months almost to the day before I started the process of getting the tattoo and those five months have been the most intense season of my life yet. Someone once told me that God will make you uncomfortable in your current situation so that you will be open to the changes He wants to make in your life. In you. I can tell you that I have been extremely uncomfortable in these five months.
Not only have I been jaded by my own pain, I’ve been pat on the head and sent home to “ride it out” so many times that, not only have I lost trust in my own ability to tell what’s an emergency and what isn’t, I no longer trust the health care providers to do it for me. As a chronic pain patient it’s all more of the same pain, even when it’s not.
I have all of my diagnoses, I have had all the surgical intervention a body can take, and I’ve exhausted the medicinal approach as well. There isn’t anything left to do but to live now and it is crushing me.
I used to be so on top of everything. I worked, danced and ran my household. I planned menus and did the grocery shopping (both things I love to do), I cleaned the house weekly and ran errands. I made costumes for events and scheduled other clubs’ dancers all while raising my kids and having a solid social life. These days I spend 75% of my time alone on my couch.
What if I genuinely considered the concept that these people truly, legitimately, do not understand the process to get that parking pass or to get on the disability program?
Of all the pieces of my life with pain I find that I am always tiptoeing around the topic of pain management. I advocate for patients’ rights to pain control, and I speak out against the stigma that only addicts use opiates. The word epidemic is being thrown around with abandon these days and opiate... Continue Reading →